Why can’t I remember

When I developed PTSD (Post-traumatic stress disorder) and dissociative disorder, I only ever remember feeling fear and confusion. Now I dissociate when under stress or during periods of depression, sometimes for a few hours, sometimes for a day or two. When I am coming back to the present, I struggle to get my mind back in working order and I go through various stages.

These pictures are an attempt to portray aspects of my mind which are part of my mental absence. The small silk shapes represent individual thoughts and memories.

Vivienne Havell

Threads, an exhibition by Vivienne Havell
October 2019